In the spring of 1999, I in the middle of a year and a half later, I will quietly leave, leave the dream of M school in junior high school. Ah! Ah! The deeply cherish the memory of an old school, I deeply and it goodbye, away from its footprints, returned to the top of a person to a dull-witted depressed; I at that time, began to slowly negative, until I am downhearted in the sleepless at night, I become vegetative, speak not walk in the vegetative. In spring, the gentle spring is not far away, like lava hot summer nor recently, my heart began to fall apart, my heart starts to dismay.

At that time, my mother asked me to have the Spring Festival after, I don't know how to answer to, uncle also asked my mother the same problem, it seems to me that they are angry with me, they look down on me, so I don't want to talk to them, but they are my parents, my parents siblings, I sometimes, might be answered them before, I have to do a lot of mental preparation. Must bear their blame, or that they are for my criticism. Whenever I go to uncle's home or relatives, I will have some concerns, or is afraid of something.

But soon half nearly ended, greeted May is hot very, so stay at home for too long, you feel so lonely and boring, parents also I have no job, but feel puzzled, think it over and over again had no friends who can help me introduce, then find the parents remember my cousin D 's, so that when they think of commissioned sister-in-law R's called D took me to the city to work F.

F city is located on the edge of the Fuchun River, the most difficult beautiful county, is also my hometown city administrative center. Although the city as it is my most beautiful dream, also is I most look forward to come to one of the city, but because life economically not rich, or because I was in the city without known relatives, so only stayed in the countryside most lifetime, until since junior high school, lost study economic benefits, I forced to quit school, but in the country for half a year, have the honor to the D 's lead, I first came to the city to work.

Since D 's hear my boring at home after the state, he was in the very next day morning, speeding and returned to his hometown urged me to go to the city to do odd jobs, because I had no idea, nor promise or promises, probably at that time, I have been in the dream of the life in the city, there's nothing to refuse the.

And in that day in the evening, mother to prepare my luggage, the kerosene lamp, she gave me mending clothes, while sewing clothes of a hole, while another nag told me:" A Cheng! You have never been to the city, what must listen to your cousin's arrangement, don't go out on a night out, that will make your brother worry, will let us worry; there is the question of your life must be well orderly, and you wear and health must be kept clean and relaxed, or your big brother and friends will look down upon you, or hate you." I said:" oh! Know."

My father said:" you know now, but really to the city after you, is it right? Our words as unheeded advice that, an inlet and an outlet to forget about and do? I hope you not, if you so, dad wouldn't want to control you."

The night his father for the first time to drink, is also the first time that I drank tincture MOET drunk, I in the night, imperceptibly in wheezing to sleep.

Early in the morning the sun was shining brightly, I also in outdoor breathe fresh air, waiting for mother made breakfast, eat a good meal, with my parents goodbye, as D 's brother came down from the mountain to the city to work together. Mother sent me on the road, or a thousand enjoin enjoin repeat last night to say to me. Dad didn't say anything, but he was from his own pocket to take out five hundred yuan in cash to my hands, I do when running, D will give the money back to his father, said:" A Cheng the money I use to think of a way, so little money of your own expenses, buy chemical fertilizer also can."

Dad said:" so how can I? Or accept it!"

D's said:" rest assured! With me! I will bless her, I will give him his money saved, in the home."

My father put the money back pocket, looking down the hill, I looked back at my father, also forgot about my mother, sometimes, I feel tears, the mood also gradually injury, fierce later, I walked toward the downhill path, go on! Let's go! The downhill road seems particularly rough, particularly rugged, I had to calm down; it was a hard hard from suffering situation, let me feel uneasy.

My back pack, baggage on another one-way road, arrive at the foot of the hill, I said to myself:" since I have to go to town to work, I should relax the mind will go to, why should so be reluctant to part."

The foot of the hill is a stream, I in the water side looked, seems to me that here was the last miss that, my heart is full of hope, full of ideals, is my nostalgia, reminds me of the beauty of my hometown. As tears like springs that, my surging mood, as in heaven so here swear, resolutely obey D's command, I went to Lake source direction to horse sword shift car, went straight to the F town.

Go forward with great strength and vigour to the F city F City, we in the long-distance passenger station of the car, the first glimpse of the big city, I think it's great, it is because I first saw the perfect city, probably for the city people, the city is not big, because there are a lot bigger than it was, such as Shanghai, Hangzhou, Nanjing are so. But I look I see, it is because I have no contact with the city, and the first contact I have seen a lot of novelty, I felt that here is my dream of heaven.

D 's first got out of the car, I have to get off the streets, together with him, I don't know what this is what Lane Road, always feel in the alley as in gossip, so I feel I can't touch the North East, and touched the East has touched the north, deeply he was puzzled. When I came to a river, river sides erected a high-rise blocks, I always thought that this is the Fuchun River, I really think you saw the Fuchun River, I was a sigh and said:" the Fuchun River does not have such a river? I didn't necessarily it big?"

D's said:" this is not the Fuchun River, but an amaranth Pujiang."

I said:" oh! It is my illusion."

Words, I am his behind, but when we are at the crossroads in the middle turn right, this is a long hill road, Liuzhou Road, building is bristly and let me feel the perfect city, economy is thriving and prosperous, each poineering hardships may make it difficult to imagine, as I came to a world, came to a childhood paradise, I see a paradise of dream in my nose to dazzle, along the road of hill of dragon of the past, it is a city surrounded by people in and out of the mall, I looked up and I saw in the commercial city upstairs to write " the Fuchun River commercial city", it seems like I know this is F the city's most bustling shopping center, the most bustling sidewalks, I just want to say: " the city of F, F, really great, I came to this strange city, I really feel in this strange city, I can absorb your sunny temperament, to be a city that the giants, I am going to show themselves." When I didn't see enough outside downtown scene, I was D's to the commercial city, there are all the stalls, food stands above the green vegetables, eggplant, garlic, onion, bean curd a kind sister church, where D's stall, led me here, and sister chatted a while when the elder sister and elder sister husband, is to eat lunch, saw us, big brother put down his chopsticks, call us to sit down, then, O O said:" A Cheng! Your dinner have you had dinner yet?" I haven't answered, D's for I said:" we have no?"

Big brother says:" here to eat, not home to burn?"

She also said:" yes! Or here to eat even, home to burn much trouble?"

D's said:" not so polite, home to burn it, it didn't take long, very fast!"

He made the remarks at the same time, I still look around, because I see here is such a big stall, is also the first time saw so many dishes people buy vegetable stall. So my curiosity in here is not fun. When I put the spirit are concentrated in the food stalls of things, he finished on the go, I'm still hazy, a bit at a loss situation, he said to me:" A Cheng, we go!"

I didn't hear, there is one point be absent-minded look, he coaxed out of said:" hello! What's on your mind? Told you so loudly did not hear? Go!"

I said:" oh!"

Elder sister and elder sister husband to pick some fresh vegetables, let you bring us back to cook; he and I left sister they couple booth, then to another butcher shop stall bought several kilograms of meat left the commercial city, and imperceptibly and through a Malaysian Road, came to a named Zhou Jianong lane, across the alley alley went to D's house.

D's house, is an underground garage, inside a very, the smell is also important, I very want to move out, but I will not economic, and unfamiliarity with the environment here, it is the parents of thousand exhort enjoin, let I firmly remember them, you want me to listen to D's so, I had to reluctantly stay. When I walked inside the heat from the outside directly to heaven, so I really feel it's hard. I am afraid went into the furnace of the house, let me really angry be ashamed of dying.

When I was in the hot sun dried by the sun at the same time, D's said:" why don't you come in? Quickly! Wash dishes!"

I went to go, say to him:" it is too hot, I have a bit of a bear."

D's continued:" hot! A fan! Do not be afraid of heat, a long time to get over. I come too, but we insist on the stand. A man should be afraid of tired, we are so out of practice."

I said:" oh!"

Came to give him food, finished lunch, he's out, let me have a rest at home for a day, starting tomorrow. I promised D's, a boring, also have a look at the room television, occasionally to bring home the story books doubled, the old warm up in primary and secondary schools the residual reading difficulty. One day in the imperceptibly in the past, soon arrived at dusk, D's also returned to cook.

I don't know how to cook, so there are a lot of housework is D's one person to complete, I can only one wash dishes, clean the room, health or what, other are not good.

At night, after dinner, D's and I had to watch TV in bed, TV also is no good program, I watched a imperceptibly fell asleep. Suddenly I wake up in the middle of the night in, I will readily, but here I can not find the toilet, was anxious to panic, I find that I finally find convenient corner, when I finished returned, was a patrol car through here, I was found by police, as a thief was caught.

The car out of the two patrol, to check my ID card, I came to the interior, from my bag show identity cards to give them, they took out the register, put my name and identity card number is recorded in it, and again and again I ask my family and address, then, they contact D 's, asked his identity, asked his work address, information is very detailed, and they have put D 's identity as a pledge, export to a television set, let him leave the TV invoice and specifications to verify, can put his things he returned to the. He had to accept, to let them.

D's until the patrol had gone, he said : "how can you not carefully, let the guard discovered?"

I said:" I don't know! How do I know the night police so fiercely, knew that, I wouldn't back out."

D's continued:" next to a sharp point, don't be so idiotic? Know or not?"

Said:" oh! Know"

Put out the light, then we sleep. In fact, it is difficult to sleep at night, because the room was at night is also very difficult to eliminate, unless the outside temperature drops to the upper 20s degrees, after midnight there may be more comfortable.

Wake up, the first thing I do is to wash brush work, then I put a few of the ash bucket and a large shovels, and in D 's back leading me to play first. In fact, I don't know what is hard, what is helpless life, I have not try, at home parents regard me as a saint as for, at that time I feel so blessed, and now I can only obey D's leadership, as his apprentice.

I came to the city gates, then turn to the Old Road South Gate Street, South Gate Street, rely on the Fuchun River, and that a large river, it is the beautiful the Fuchun River, we stand position is the Fuchun River ferry terminal, just because it is against the direction of the city to the South, so it means draw road also known as South Gate Street, near the edge of the the Fuchun River. I came here, did not look at the moon, not here on vacation trip or something, I was just a young worker, come to the edge of the the Fuchun River many-storied buildings work, most beautiful the Fuchun River river I and it are not fate.

I climbed to the six floor of this building opened the door, there are several woodworking early start working here, their decoration process of half, I come here only a toilet and a wing not paved tiles. This is D 's and I started to do it.

My first day at work, is to carry cement bag or sandbags, or timber is to carry me, in fact, living very tired, let me have a little too much, I want to go home, leaving walking back, but I'm penniless, did not know how to go home, D's in order to prevent my run home, so before coming, he will try various devices to let my parents didn't give me money, but now I know, already too late for regrets. I sighed deeply, said:" hey! But. But ah! Is really helpless!" I really feel cheated like that, there is a stuttering without resistance.

The first day I was tired, legs pumping by the spirit, let me very tired.

To the very next day morning, I don't want to wake up, is D 's wake me from this dream, urged me to go to work, I mistily mistily to get up, go to work, work on the path of two feet in a fall while walking a stumble, there seems to be a little be petrified like. How can I not to mention the spirit. Seems to me the whole